Friday, 31 October 2008

A Truce - and Curious Goings On


The above picture says it all, I think. Bussie and Mollie have finally laid down arms – for a minute...

The other night I had the strangest dream A little girl stood in front of me and put her arms up towards me. I bent down, picked her up, and she hugged me tight, wrapping her legs around my waist, clutching me with hot little arms, her head tucked into the nook by my chin. I held her tight and rocked her until she was comforted, and felt as if someone had punched me in the stomach. Who was this girl, and why did I love her so much?

The dream was at once deeply upsetting yet a great comfort, and stayed with me all day, not fading as dreams usually do. The image grew stronger, which made me think she has a purpose.

So I wondered who she was. The daughter I never had?
The sister I never had?
Me as a little girl.
An embodiment of life and death – for they are different ends of the same spectrum.

Or perhaps I'm just being analytical and it was just one of those strange things that you can't account for.

On the way home from seeing a friend last night I came round the corner to our flat and there beside me was the little girl, skipping along and calling me. She held my hand and we swung arms and then she faded away.

When I woke in the middle of the night, she was there again. Close by, needing me there while she went to sleep.

Curiouser and curiouser...

19 comments:

Pat Posner said...

Lovely photo, Flowerpot. Is Mollie doing ok on wheat free?

As for your dream... you've written so beautifully about it and it must mean something, though I don't know what.

Lane said...

I love that photo. Does Molls have control of the TV guide and the remote?:-)

What poignant dreams. I don't know what they mean but as Pat said, you've written about them beautifully.

Sally said...

Maybe talk to someone in the know? It sounds like a nice dream though...

rosiero said...

All the characters in our dreams are supposed to be extensions of ourself, so technically the little girl is you.

JJ said...

I see Mollie hasn't got her nose end toward Bussie though! Probably very wise.

Flowerpot said...

Pat - thanks Pat she is itch free on wheat free - at last! What a relief.

Lane - yes, she is in sole charge of the TV!! As forthe dream .... well??

Flowerpot said...

Sally - that's a good idea.

Rosiero - that's certainly one possibility, and would sort of make sense.

Flowerpot said...

JJ - No it pays to be careful where Bussie's concerned!

menopausaloldbag (MOB) said...

She's just who she is - someone representing you in different states and allowing you to nurture yourself perhaps?!

Flowerpot said...

MOB - that sounds entirely possible. But it's very confusing. I wonder if I'll see her today?

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Ellee Seymour said...

I can see you and Himself smiling at that image of domestic bliss.

Akelamalu said...

The little girl obviously means something - my guess would be she has been sent to comfort you. x

Elaine said...

What do you 'feel' when you see her. Scared? Curious? Sad? Comforted?

I think I'd be petrified!

Flowerpot said...

ellee - Himself thinks it's my hormones!!

ak - I think she has in a way.

Flowerpot said...

elaine - at first I felt really rattled, yet comforted, because I knew she meant a huge amount. Later she became a great comfort - which is good. It wasnt scary, just surprising. Very surprising!

Philipa said...

Hmm interesting dreams, fp. And like the pic :-)

Violets new Vintage said...

spooky!

Flowerpot said...

Phil - pic is courtesy of Himself, I should have said!

VV - well it didnt feel spooky though it might sound it!