As you can see, Lainy is unaffected by lockdown and having a fabulous time on the beach the other morning. In fact, she seems such a happy dog that she cheers me up no end. She has stalwart common sense, a trait that I like to think Moll passed on to her. She has also got Moll's greediness but is way more affectionate, and at the moment, there's nothing like a cuddle.
Over the last week or so I've become increasingly insular. This happened at first in Lockdown One, and didn't last long, I seem to remember. It's been brought on by fear of infection, of course, and the worry that some people don't keep their distance when walking. Covid has spread paranoia among most of us, and it's not pleasant. But it is necessary, or I feel it to be.
For someone who's usually very sociable, I am finding my own company to be enough. Admittedly I have a lot of stuff to keep my brain busy: sending out Book One to agents, writing Book Two (which is pure escapsim, I love it) and also trying to find non-Covid related grants for our business. So in the weekdays I am busy. I have a structure to my days which I find essential. Get up, walk Lainy, at my desk, work then walk her again at around 3pm. Maybe more writing later. French on Wednesday nights via Skype. Book group via Zoom. Phone calls to my Mum and friends in the evenings.
Yesterday Lainy and I went out in the drizzle. I was tired: I'd finished another chapter of Novel Two and it was muggy weather but I don't mind that. We decided to strike out along a footpath I hadn't tried before, and that led over big, open fields, muddy of course but it lifted my spirits no end. Nestled in among the ivy we found an old Lister engine, one that I knew a friend would love as a money making opportunity (?). (I sent a picture - he got excited as I thought he might.) The walk was pleasant: we met few people and I didn't want to talk, preferred my own company and that of Lainy. As we drove away, at the end of the road was a stall selling organic eggs - 6 for £1. That really cheered me up.
And later, the only good bit of news on Radio Four was that in an attempt to cull the grey squirrel population, hazelnut spread is being used, laced with contraception.
That really made my day.
8 comments:
I don't think you are alone in being insular. We miss our new granddaughter (and mum and dad of course) but we can't do anything about it. Other than dog walking and food shopping, we ararely venture out.
DC - there's nothing to venture out FOR other than dog walking and food, is there? Vaccines seem to be rolling out well here so hope they are with you too X
There's so much talk at the moment about mental health that it has almost become a buzz word for people to flout the rules. I am amazed how I have coped with my own company mainly shut indoors, as I am shielding, and little outside stimulus over the last 10 months. I think I am sane (she said banging her head against the wall!) It will be very strange when life eventually returns to normal.
Hello Sue, I start my working days with a Teams chat. Whilst I always appreciate this contact, some days I don’t feel like saying very much, other days they can’t shut me up. My colleagues must think I’m bi-polar! You’re muddy walk sounds wonderful and it makes me happy that the chucks are still laying. Good job on your writing flow and new novel. Lainey looks very content. Lulu xXx
I too am a little paranoid about other people - I wonder if we will still keep our distance when this is all over? Your walk sounds lovely and Lainey looks so happy!
Addy - well done you for coping so well indoors. I am so lucky being able to get out and with Lainy. It is a strange time indeed and yes, it will be very odd when restrictions ease a bit.
Lulu - There's definitely something to be said for Zoom or Teams chats. I don't always appreciate them but it does remind us that there are other people out there - and what they look like! Take care XX
Wannabe - I think we're going to have to keep our distance for a while yet....
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